There have been a few moments in my life where I have felt awkward. I have to say, it is one of the strangest feelings I think you can experience. For me, it usually means something important is happening and I can’t seem to express myself right in the process. That was the way I felt a lifetime again, standing in the cold on my college campus, and trying to convey to Julie Schurdell just how much I liked her. My track record at sharing my feelings in similar circumstances was lousy, and I was sure I was on my way to crashing and burning once again. So when I think back to that night all those years ago, that one feeling shines through the most clear: I felt awkward…closely followed by relief that somehow, she like me too.
After fifteen years of marriage, she can still make me feel that way. Oh, it’s not intentional. I just still feel the same way around her. She makes me feel important and I can never seem to be able to express what I feel properly. Who she is and what she does always makes words seem so inadequate. But since today is my anniversary, I thought I’d give it a try once more…
She never makes me feel stupid even when I screw up royally
She never recognizes that she is way out of my league
She is a better mom to our kids than I would have known to wish for
She is smarter than me but lets me take the credit for our successes
She never belittles my interests, no matter how immature
She’s a hottie
She’s adept at helping me become the man I want to be
She is genuinely kind
She shows me what Jesus is like through the way she lives
My words are still not enough. I suppose they never will be. I just know that I am more blessed than I deserve to be able to call Julie my wife. I’m grateful for fifteen years and I’m looking forward to many more. All my love, all my life, Jules!
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